乱

开心 伤心 谁来决定
用尽 真心 却得不到任何回应

坚定 决定 谁会关心

用尽 全力 却得不到同样回应

i like sad songs. that melancholic feeling they bring out of me... makes me feel sad.. n that actually feels really good. 我越伤心就越喜欢听忧伤的歌曲.

不知为何, 我的心情是如此的差.

是失望, 是无奈, 是懊恼.

心里的纳闷却无法得到解脱.

突然觉得自己好渺小, 好孤单, 似乎没人能理解我, 了解真正的我.

好想痛哭一场, 却忍住了.

我要的结果, 离我好远好远.

是否会雨过天晴的那一天?
still thinking... pondering... wondering...

it's raining
adds to this melancholic feeling
i particularly like wallowing in this feeling
imagining myself out there in the lonely streets, having only the streetlamp as company. as the rain pours down onto me, each droplet cold and hard, just like a bullet pelting down onto me. and all of them start hitting me mercilessly. im totally drenched, feeling the cold seeping through my skin, into my bones, freezing up every part of me, especially my heart. i dowan to feel anything. especially my brain. i dowan to think anymore. i just wanna stay frozen. and i noe after this, i will only be refreshed, with all troubles washed away away away...