will you miss me?
flying off to scandinavia (denmark, norway, finland, sweden) tml nite...
mixed feelings.
homesick.
thinking in a positive light, this trip would give me good time alone to sort out my thots and my feelings. in a state of confusion these days. lotsa stuff happening. lotsa reflection to do. i have hurt someone so badly. yet i cant help it. or so i think. i shd learn to make the people around me happier. yet i realise... i try to please the people who dun really care. yet i hurt the people who truly care. is it worth it? oh, wat am i doing?
have you ever taken someone close to you for granted? knowing they'll alwiz b there for u, therefore u jus dun really care anymore... n focus ur attention on people whom are not even worth ur attention, or who dun really bother much abt u, or who are jus plain frens. after so much effort being put into forging the close bond, u jus feel the bond will alwiz b there.. the person will alwiz b there... anyways, u're starting to get sick of the person too... n so u hop on, to the next target, to start forging a closer bond. a new person, a new relationship, a new start, a new world. den wat happens to the previous person now? someone close in name... but in reality? jus a work of art? a human statue placed in a small insignificant corner of ur heart. well, at least u even place dat person in ur heart huh?
how will that person (in other words, statue) feel? lotsa feelings, i assure u. a mixture of contentment and sadness. contented cos at least u were once close. u once made him/her feel appreciated, loved, wanted. sad cos its painful to see ur dear one disappearing from ur life jus lidat, n instead entering someone else's life. from 'number 1' in the heart, position is dropped to... 'number 100'? all the times spent together, all the effort put into forging this special bond... true, u may think, 'we're still close ah'... but closeness is not jus in name. it needs to be maintained and nourished. how can two ppl remain close if they dun even spend time with each other or talk to each other or share their thots anymore? sometimes when u really need that someone, and u dun manage to get hold of him/her, its quite disappointing n demoralizing. well, u may think, 'come on, cannot be so selfish, u dun own me, u dun own anyone, how can tie me down jus lidat?' yea i guess dats true... but in all honesty, if u ever put urself in the shoes of the sad 'statue', u will feel dat hurt n dat loneliness. u wont see the statue cry. u wont see the statue unhappy infront of u. dats cos the statue wants you to be happy. but are u able to see the tears in his/her heart? will u even care?
which of the above characters are u?
i guess im both?
flying off tml... will u even miss me? will u even realise im not there? will u even care?
i shall take this opportunity to numb myself. so dat i wont bother abt wat ur ans to the above qns will be. cos somehow, somewhere in my heart, i noe the answer shd be... ' no'.
flying off to scandinavia (denmark, norway, finland, sweden) tml nite...
mixed feelings.
homesick.
thinking in a positive light, this trip would give me good time alone to sort out my thots and my feelings. in a state of confusion these days. lotsa stuff happening. lotsa reflection to do. i have hurt someone so badly. yet i cant help it. or so i think. i shd learn to make the people around me happier. yet i realise... i try to please the people who dun really care. yet i hurt the people who truly care. is it worth it? oh, wat am i doing?
have you ever taken someone close to you for granted? knowing they'll alwiz b there for u, therefore u jus dun really care anymore... n focus ur attention on people whom are not even worth ur attention, or who dun really bother much abt u, or who are jus plain frens. after so much effort being put into forging the close bond, u jus feel the bond will alwiz b there.. the person will alwiz b there... anyways, u're starting to get sick of the person too... n so u hop on, to the next target, to start forging a closer bond. a new person, a new relationship, a new start, a new world. den wat happens to the previous person now? someone close in name... but in reality? jus a work of art? a human statue placed in a small insignificant corner of ur heart. well, at least u even place dat person in ur heart huh?
how will that person (in other words, statue) feel? lotsa feelings, i assure u. a mixture of contentment and sadness. contented cos at least u were once close. u once made him/her feel appreciated, loved, wanted. sad cos its painful to see ur dear one disappearing from ur life jus lidat, n instead entering someone else's life. from 'number 1' in the heart, position is dropped to... 'number 100'? all the times spent together, all the effort put into forging this special bond... true, u may think, 'we're still close ah'... but closeness is not jus in name. it needs to be maintained and nourished. how can two ppl remain close if they dun even spend time with each other or talk to each other or share their thots anymore? sometimes when u really need that someone, and u dun manage to get hold of him/her, its quite disappointing n demoralizing. well, u may think, 'come on, cannot be so selfish, u dun own me, u dun own anyone, how can tie me down jus lidat?' yea i guess dats true... but in all honesty, if u ever put urself in the shoes of the sad 'statue', u will feel dat hurt n dat loneliness. u wont see the statue cry. u wont see the statue unhappy infront of u. dats cos the statue wants you to be happy. but are u able to see the tears in his/her heart? will u even care?
which of the above characters are u?
i guess im both?
flying off tml... will u even miss me? will u even realise im not there? will u even care?
i shall take this opportunity to numb myself. so dat i wont bother abt wat ur ans to the above qns will be. cos somehow, somewhere in my heart, i noe the answer shd be... ' no'.
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