~sunshine after the rain~

finally... my mum is happy with me again!
typed her a 4 page long letter, talked to her for one hour...
now, im feeling so so happy...
burden lifted off my shoulder.
i feel i can fly...!!! =)
la la la ~

now, i have the mood to talk more crap le...
but i realise i dunno wat to say le... *oops*
hmm...

realised i just hurt some people terribly.
feel bad.
feel sad.
feel guilty.
must improve myself.
in the midst of trying to win over some people, i hurt the people who mean most to me.
i hurt the ones who love me most.
guess im not as good a gal as i thot i was...

down to lighter matters, i cant wait to go ktv again! realised singing can help to clear the brain n heart of troubles. can feel really feng1 and qing1 song1 after belting out a few songs... ha. like to sing fish leung's songs. tink i can jus sing her songs for the whole session. haha. boring huh? but her songs very nice to sing. suits my vocals better too. muz give lotsa credit to my 2 k-buddies. they make the whole k-session so enjoyable. kenneth's voice so smooth. my heart almost melted when he sang guang liang's tong2 hua4. i was so mesmerised by his voice that i missed the mtv. jus kept staring at him. haha. *oops*

wonder if my freshies wanna go ktv with me one day... keke. i muz find a new grp of k-buddies. cos my gang is flying off to uk in september for studies. sigh. that would leave mx lonely and sad.
yet i tink i prefer to go with jus the guy freshies (that is if they even wanna go with me)... guess im not close to the gals ba. ok, im onli close to one gal. the grp of gals who frequent ktv... HMMMZ... im pretty sure they wont wanna see me. sighz. ok, at least i noe one of them definitely dowan to see me. wat a failure i am.

oh well.
i shd care for people who truly care abt me.
n not dwell over those who heck care me.
i shoudnt be so desperate to get everyone's acceptance.
guess as long as one have a few true friends, one shd b satisfied.
hence, im really satisfied le.
la la la ~ happy gal~