A Fairy Tale

*finding me*

june's been a crazy month... all the camps n trainings.. but im actually enjoying myself! hmmm. there were times during training.. in my first 2 schools.. when i wonder to myself... if im suited to be a trainer. i couldnt handle the kids. they totally ate me. they ignored me when i trained. i didnt noe how to build rapport with them. i felt i was boring. i almost cried. i felt lousy... how can i ever reach the standard of the other trainers?

i still feel this way... except that.. im starting to enjoy myself... maybe it's the school. admiralty primary and princess elizabeth primary were totally awesome schools with amazing students. they made me feel that all my pain n tiredness was worthwhile. i felt confident when i was up there training infront of them. i felt interesting. i felt appreciated. i felt happy. i had fun. n i love them. all of them.

yet somehow
somewhere
some part of me
i still feel
i havent broken out of my shell
im still holding back
to what
i have absolutely no idea
but im holding back
im still not the me i wanna be
im still not the me i am
i feel unfeeling
i feel stone
what's holding me back?
fear?
is this the right thing to do?
wats the right thing to do?
why muz i follow others?
who am i?
wat am i?
when can i be me?

july trainings.. here i come. im actually lookin forward to them. i hope to improve. hope to be better. i wanna challenge myself. i muz do better. watch me grow!

ooh im totally nuts over nicholas teo... help! heard he's coming to sg... yippee~ his new album is super super nice... ooh.. will upload one of the songs soon.. so many nice ones to choose from...

i feel im getting incoherent. no idea wat im talkin abt. so i shall leave u all with nice fotos.. memories of the camps...~ these pictures are chosen bcos i tink i look nice in them..haha. plus those are my beloved coaches!