*enlightened*
a wise man enlightened me quite abit today. he knew i was feelin insecure n inconfident. n he kinda identified the cause of it.. part of it.
im too bothered abt how others think abt me.
im too concerned with
the impression im creating
the image im forming in others' eyes/mind
how they judge me
how they judge my actions
i wanna portray my best
i wanna be perfect in their eyes
i wanna be well liked
so i end up doin things to please ppl
n start being inconfident of the real me
will they can accept me?
the real me?
the me with all those flaws?
is wat im doin right?
is wat im doin the right way to their heart?
now what shd i do?
im quite the perfectionist.. yet im not perfect.. yet i wanna b perfect. sigh.
attended the 'making great impression' course today in NUS. i would like to rename it 'SDU finding your date' course instead. gosh. lotsa guy-gal pairing, talking n stuff abt our ideal partner kinda stuff... i cant even recall how many ppl i talked to today... all i noe is that.. i talked to quite alot of ppl. made loads of new frens. n the introduction is kinda programmed in me le... ha. shake hand. press play button. introduction is played. though i muz admit, it got quite fun after awhile.. warm up le, den quite high. FUN! lil cloud, yx, zr n wilsanto made it all the more fun for me. else i'll b that insecure introverted antisocial gal hiding in a corner.
a wise man enlightened me quite abit today. he knew i was feelin insecure n inconfident. n he kinda identified the cause of it.. part of it.
im too bothered abt how others think abt me.
im too concerned with
the impression im creating
the image im forming in others' eyes/mind
how they judge me
how they judge my actions
i wanna portray my best
i wanna be perfect in their eyes
i wanna be well liked
so i end up doin things to please ppl
n start being inconfident of the real me
will they can accept me?
the real me?
the me with all those flaws?
is wat im doin right?
is wat im doin the right way to their heart?
now what shd i do?
im quite the perfectionist.. yet im not perfect.. yet i wanna b perfect. sigh.
attended the 'making great impression' course today in NUS. i would like to rename it 'SDU finding your date' course instead. gosh. lotsa guy-gal pairing, talking n stuff abt our ideal partner kinda stuff... i cant even recall how many ppl i talked to today... all i noe is that.. i talked to quite alot of ppl. made loads of new frens. n the introduction is kinda programmed in me le... ha. shake hand. press play button. introduction is played. though i muz admit, it got quite fun after awhile.. warm up le, den quite high. FUN! lil cloud, yx, zr n wilsanto made it all the more fun for me. else i'll b that insecure introverted antisocial gal hiding in a corner.
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hi..saw your blog address from msn...decided to tk a look before i sleep.. Yah..im oso quite the perfectionist..trying too hard to impress..yah..i find u quite friendly and approachable even; probably because of the smile... slowly and surely u will become a social magnet :)
hey tai li!
nice of u to pop by n comment... n boost my ego somemore.. hee. guess we gotta work hard to accept ourselves as we are n heck care how others tink abt us huh... u're friendly n approachable too u noe... nice talkin to ya...
social magnet ah... quite tough la.. haha...
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