mix me up

going to sci lib to study with adalooo tml... the last exam in our lives. im filled with mixed feelings. on one hand, its the dreaded exams once again. on the other hand, im gonna miss exams after this. that nervous, want-to-die, panicky, sian feeling. im kinda immune to the negative side of it. rather, im enjoying the study process. going to lib to study with wonderful frens. the thrill of seeing eye candies in lib. yet the sinking feelin dat i cant finish studying.. its amazing how these different emotions can co-exist at any one point in time. u noe, exams aren't that dreadful afterall... ok dat is assuming i can finish studying and i dun get killer papers.

kinda ironic... as my last wk of lessons approaches... im feelin the heartache.. of not having any more lessons to attend anymore after this. yet i still recall myself in yr1-3 jumping at any opportunity to pon class. gee. guess its true dat we only treasure things when its too late...

i will only feel as if i got a sense of direction at home... if and only if i got a whole load of stuff to mug. else i will jus feel very aimless... aiyz. why am i sucha farnie person... with farnie feelings.. sigh.

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