INTERNAL CONFLICT

now that i've got a long awaited opportunity right infront of me
im hesitating
im actually hesitating
wat am i waiting for
i noe i'll regret if i dun take it up
yet
i've got so many excuses not to go for it
time
commitments
parents
reality
im so confused now
n the onli reason i can give to justify me going for it
is...
chasing a dream
how not down to earth
yet its the only hope
tho there isnt much hope at all

i always tell my peers n students... we wont noe it til we TRY. no matter wat, we should always have the courage to go for the things we want/wish. else, we'll only end up as failures. losers. losing, not to others, but to ourselves. you neva noe wats at the end of the rainbow...

but i cant seem to practice wat i preach now... maybe cos i noe its not the rainbow i see.. but a path leading to a cliff.

how would i noe?
wat shd i do?
am i jus wasting my time?
yes.