궁 - Princess Hours

jus ended a 7 day marathon over you-tube. Princess Hours is super super super good. so sweet... haha.. my kind of show. having withdrawal symptoms now. really couldnt bear to finish watching it. was totally glued to it, that i kinda neglected my stats test. aah... n im so so so in love with the cast... all of them. hee.. esp the 2 princes... *drool*.

well, this korean series actually invoked lotsa thinking in me too... had so much thots throughout this period. lemme ask you, what's your dream? hav u eva thot abt ur dream? the thing u want so much to achieve in ur life. it may be attainable or unattainable, but its an intense desire deep deep down within you. many ppl live their lives aimlessly, without any plans or goals or dreams. are you one of them? why do some of us not dream? or not dare to dream? hmm...

i neva asked myself this qn before... but when it appeared in this show, i realised dat deep down within me, i already had a dream. maybe cos of my insecurities in life, my total absence of self confidence, or cos i dowan to be the me i am right now... its a v impractical dream. some may call it materialistic or crazy or just normal. it is...

... being able to perform - sing/act/dance - infront of a super super super large audience.

ok dun luff. some may call it 'fa1 ming2 xing1 meng4'... well... abit ba. just not entirely too. ok la, i admit i like attention. ha. since jc, i hav enjoyed performing... be it in ge chuang or harmoc. love that feelin on stage. knowing dat everyone is focussing attention on me. that stress of having to perform well. that sense of satisfaction after a performance. its indescribable. that time i watched 'ma ma mia' at the esplanade, i really wanted to take part in sucha performance. even keh-leh-fare oso good. lead singer better of cos. haha.. ok la, but i cant sing dat well... cant act dat well... and definitely cannot dance (i taught mass dance in sec sch.. but dats a diff thing... n i didnt hav dat many blobbing fats then). noe dat this will neva b a path i'll take. no looks. no figure. no talent. n i dowan to be the next william hung.

so, goodbye dreams. hello reality.

back to bathroom singing. enclosed ktv room. a mirror infront of me. to remind me im not of star quality. a basin of icy cold water. to pour over me, to wake my senses.

shall jus lock my big dream in dat little corner of my heart. n let reality gobble me up.