*sigh*

demoralised.
been asking myself...
why am i so dumb?
why am i so stupid?
feel so incapable.
feel like an idiot.
feel so inferior.
i used to feel happy and proud of my alma mater.
i still feel this way.
but...
i feel ashamed to even say where im from.
spoil my sch name.
argh...
whywhywhywhywhy?????
feel like a black sheep...
baa...
feel like crying...
yet im confused.
i dunno wat im feeling now.
just hope to do a good honours proj.
but how can i continue...
when my brain's empty?
n my spirit's weak?
n my morale...
dun have no morale...

on a lighter note..
today's a good day. minus the meeting with my sup.
happy day. sad day.
someone's been really sweet. n i appreciate it lots.
at least there's still someone who's here for me.
but my problems are still here.
n i hav no idea how to solve them.

heck abt problems.. argh...
on a happier note...
IM GOING FOR NDP!!! muahaha... so happy! tickets were hard to come by... n im jus so glad to get my hands on them... yippee~ weird.. when i had easy access to the tix, i didnt wanna go. now dat its so hard to get the tix, i wanna go. argh...
hmmm kaira gong singing the ndp song... she's my jc ge chuang senior... superb.
u noe... its my dream to hav a solo singing performance at ndp... haha.. ok maybe i really shd go to bed now to dream abt it since this will neva be realised.. ha.