wat does coaching mean to me...?

3 wonderful days at rulang pri sch.
it was the company.
that made it all the more enjoyable.
n i actually looked forward to each day.
loads of hugs, comfort, tickles, fun, laughter.
loads of sweetness.
a suprise lime juice and yakult treat.
heart-warming.
how i miss those days...

i have forgotten how happiness feels like.
but happiness is transcient.
it always is.
n there's always a certain degree of self deceit to it.
u wanna be happy.
so u imagine dat u're happy.
n then u're happy.
but once reality sets in.
u'll feel empty once again.

addicted to coaching.
am i really?
or am i addicted to the people who made coaching fun?
once these ppl leave my life...
where will i be once again?
wat will coaching mean to me again?