*escapism*

im feeling blue.
cos my exams will be over in 13 hrs time.
wish this exam period would last forever.
i like that feeling.
that routine.
the predictability of things.
i enjoy that feeling.
of anticipation.
be it for the exam papers
or for my 3 eye candies.
n i will miss this feeling so dearly.

i refuse to sleep.
for once i sleep, it'll be tomorrow when my eyes open.
it'll b the last day of my exams.
it'll mark the end of my happy exam moments.
to be able to go to the lib everyday.
to challenge myself to focus.
to look forward to seeing my funky D.
to be able to catch a glimpse or even better,
to say hi to my funky D.

its this period of time.
where my adrenaline level is kept high.
my stress level is almost bursting.
my brain cells are almost dead.
yet my happiness level is maximum.

weird, u may think.
weird, i may be.
i neva thot i'll feel this way.
maybe im too sentimental.
maybe i jus miss the company of my study mate - ade.
maybe i'll miss ogling at zhang dong liang.
maybe i'll miss my funky D so badly.
maybe maybe maybe...
maybe the reason is because
i want to escape.

escape from reality.
escape from the numerous things awaiting me to settle.
honours project
akltg camps
rj ge chuang concert
n the list goes on.
escape from troubles.
escape from everything.
this exam period is like a shield.
protecting me.
shielding me from my worries.
i can jus cast everything aside.
and study like i've neva studied before.
and play like i've neva played before.

and when all this is over.
slowly, all my worries will start creeping back.
flooding back.
all back to haunt me.
in fact, they have already entered my mind.
and affected my mood tonight.
thus this entry was born.