fweelings
suddenly feeling abit depressed.
nono, its not dat time of the month or wat.
jus lotsa 'fweelings'.
i feel overloaded.
with thoughts.
with worries.
with everything.
jus a sudden change in mood.
maybe cos i didnt get to see funky D after waiting for 25mins.
ok la i saw him.. but we were on different bus le.
that aside.
jus reflecting back on my life.
rather... my uni life.
only one word to describe.
screwed.
hav u ever asked urself all the 'IF' questions?
IF i had gone overseas to study instead?
IF i had put in more effort in my previous exams?
IF i was more intelligent?
IF i was not distracted by other rubbish?
IF i was a better person?
IF i didnt tink abt all these IFs?
wat would my life be like now?
would i be happier?
would i be smarter?
would i be more fulfilled?
would i still be here infront of my comp at 5:40pm on 10th april 2006 listening to fish leung's 'fly away' and wasting away?
would u still be reading this?
sigh.
suddenly feeling abit depressed.
nono, its not dat time of the month or wat.
jus lotsa 'fweelings'.
i feel overloaded.
with thoughts.
with worries.
with everything.
jus a sudden change in mood.
maybe cos i didnt get to see funky D after waiting for 25mins.
ok la i saw him.. but we were on different bus le.
that aside.
jus reflecting back on my life.
rather... my uni life.
only one word to describe.
screwed.
hav u ever asked urself all the 'IF' questions?
IF i had gone overseas to study instead?
IF i had put in more effort in my previous exams?
IF i was more intelligent?
IF i was not distracted by other rubbish?
IF i was a better person?
IF i didnt tink abt all these IFs?
wat would my life be like now?
would i be happier?
would i be smarter?
would i be more fulfilled?
would i still be here infront of my comp at 5:40pm on 10th april 2006 listening to fish leung's 'fly away' and wasting away?
would u still be reading this?
sigh.
1 Comments:
we always ask the if questions, even if we're happy. maybe sometimes its time to stop asking if, but rather how. u can't change the ifs, but you can change the hows.
we all run into self doubt... its all about how fast you can pick urself up again, cos the stopwatch doesnt wait for u if u fall while running 2.4
and i'll always be reading this *hugz*
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