a little here and there...

attended my cousin's wedding...

first time attending a church wedding. quite excited cos dis cousin (paternal side) is one of my favourite n is one of the closest to me. ok, not super close dat kind, but at least we can talk freely and chat alot during cny. i'll usu b the lonely one standing there trying to act busy and pretty. then he'll b there to entertain me abit. cos the rest hav their own topics and i cant seem to engage in them. feel quite lost and sad at times. initially, it was his sis who talked lots to me, but ever since she got married, i havent seen her during cny le, cos of clash in timing. apparently, i was named after dis cousin... he's andrew, and im andrea. ha. n he looks like superman from smallville.. hehe... yandao guy. met his wife during dis yr's cny too.. pretty and sophisticated lady. perfect match. feel so happy for the both of them.

As i saw the bride walking down the aisle, beeming radiantly, i saw my cousin looking at his bride with pride, and i thot i saw the sparkle of tears in his eyes. guess it must have been a truly touching moment. thereafter, saw them go thru the rites and all... got pretty boring after awhile. oops. oh, but it was quite interesting hearing both parties take their vows. first time hearing it live, instead of from the tv... heh. can hear their nervous stammers, and feel their relief when it was completed successfully. hee. really touching ba the whole thing... i even saw my other cousin (the groom's sis) tearing. tears of happiness i guess. i was thoroughly moved too.

gathered lotsa thots and feelings...
when do u noe that ur partner is the right one?
how would u noe its true love, and not a crush or a moment's love?
how can u make ur love stay constant?
how can a couple even gather the courage to get married?
how would u noe when u're ready?
...i guess u'll noe when u're ready huh?

mini quarrel with mum over attending huiwen's bday party...

haiz got quite angry.. cos i recover le, but mum refused to lemme attend huiwen's bday party. so irritated. cos she say i hafta travel so far, yadda yadda yadda... skared i fall sick again. haiz. i wanted to go out so much... personal reason too. sigh. jus hope huiwen had a great party anyway. sorry dear... [ha tho im not so dua pai la... my absence is not sth dat great. just disappointed dat i couldnt go to my good fren's party]

teach my cousin piano...

haiz my cousin got scolded by her yamaha piano teacher for not knowing how to play the pieces. gee. she practices only once a week, wat d'u expect? so now no choice, hafta come to my house to have drilling lessons again. one whole afternoon of playing... quite tiring. she's pretty stubborn at times, and being her 'jie jie' makes things harder. she refuses to listen to me! ok, she does.. but minimal. so after ploughing thru those 4 pieces, i surrender. ha. mentally n physically shack! dis further proves why i cannot be a teacher... i dun hav dat patience. or rather, i dislike ppl testing my patience. heh. but oh well, she's my cousin n i simply love her. yet...

i hate cliques.

but this yr's sow seem to have lotsa cliques in them. female cliques. gee. i hate cliques. 'nuff said.

etcetcetc...

someone jus told me today im 'forever indulging in self sympathy'...!!! as evident from my blog entries. my gosh. did i??? goodness.. i neva knew that was self sympathy.. i muz improve myself from now on. darn. i must start standing up, n not whine at every darn thing. gee. thanx for knocking my head. i hope im awake.

watched hotman2 jus now.. a japanese series. really nice and cute and motivating and inspiring. learnt that life is not all about love and hurt and blablabla... this world is a beautiful place, depending on which angle u're viewing it at. i shall try viewing it at 180 degrees tomorrow.

cheers!