nonsensical whinings
u can say im happy now...
yet u can say in unhappy too...
im caught right in between.
i cant feel super happy or elated.
yet i noe i shouldnt be too depressed.
yet... i feel rather down.
n i guess.. only i know the reason why.
many ppl hav asked me why my blog is alwiz so sad...
can i help it?
oh yes i can... but no i cant.
its alot of things i guess.
yet its also only a single thing.
its killing me.
robbing me of my senses.
yet i still feel the hurt.
contradictory huh?
it wouldnt be if u understood the whole picture.
but my story is worthless.
the main characters in it dun really bother.
their aloofness cuts into me.
some call it heartlessness.
i call it a lack of interest.
why isit dat no matter wat i do, the end result is still the same?
why isit dat no matter wat happens, i end up feeling dis way?
why cant it continue?
why do things turn in one way, yet turn out the other way?
why is there no way dat i can change the situation?
why cant i make u feel wat i want u to feel?
why do i feel wat i dowan me to feel?
why am i not making any sense anymore?
when u're feeling like crap, u tend to write crap... on ur past experiences, on ur fren's past experiences, or on stuff u heard abt people... the following may or may not be afterthots of my own experiences. its just sth i feel makes sense to certain people at some points of their life.
i noe when i am most happy...
its when im with you.
but that doesnt matter anymore.
it never did matter to u anyway.
n dats wat hurt me most.
why can i make the whole world fall in love with me
yet am unable to make u do so?
why am i so willing to do everything for u?
u tink its for me?
u tink pining for someone is fun?
u tink sacrificing everything is so easy?
knowing that i'll neva b the one u want makes things harder
yet, i still am so willing.
someone places u dearly in his heart
but u cant accept him
wat if two someones place u dearly in their hearts
yet u can accept neither?
do u break their hearts?
or do u continue letting them dream
any one of them strikes u in the heart?
i feel much better now.
[btw, to pizza boy, thanx for clearing up matters. im happier now... *hugz*]
happy birthday kor! (19th june)
happy birthday huiwen! (20th june)
u can say im happy now...
yet u can say in unhappy too...
im caught right in between.
i cant feel super happy or elated.
yet i noe i shouldnt be too depressed.
yet... i feel rather down.
n i guess.. only i know the reason why.
many ppl hav asked me why my blog is alwiz so sad...
can i help it?
oh yes i can... but no i cant.
its alot of things i guess.
yet its also only a single thing.
its killing me.
robbing me of my senses.
yet i still feel the hurt.
contradictory huh?
it wouldnt be if u understood the whole picture.
but my story is worthless.
the main characters in it dun really bother.
their aloofness cuts into me.
some call it heartlessness.
i call it a lack of interest.
why isit dat no matter wat i do, the end result is still the same?
why isit dat no matter wat happens, i end up feeling dis way?
why cant it continue?
why do things turn in one way, yet turn out the other way?
why is there no way dat i can change the situation?
why cant i make u feel wat i want u to feel?
why do i feel wat i dowan me to feel?
why am i not making any sense anymore?
when u're feeling like crap, u tend to write crap... on ur past experiences, on ur fren's past experiences, or on stuff u heard abt people... the following may or may not be afterthots of my own experiences. its just sth i feel makes sense to certain people at some points of their life.
i noe when i am most happy...
its when im with you.
but that doesnt matter anymore.
it never did matter to u anyway.
n dats wat hurt me most.
why can i make the whole world fall in love with me
yet am unable to make u do so?
why am i so willing to do everything for u?
u tink its for me?
u tink pining for someone is fun?
u tink sacrificing everything is so easy?
knowing that i'll neva b the one u want makes things harder
yet, i still am so willing.
someone places u dearly in his heart
but u cant accept him
wat if two someones place u dearly in their hearts
yet u can accept neither?
do u break their hearts?
or do u continue letting them dream
any one of them strikes u in the heart?
i feel much better now.
[btw, to pizza boy, thanx for clearing up matters. im happier now... *hugz*]
happy birthday kor! (19th june)
happy birthday huiwen! (20th june)
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