<-- pre-flight syndrome -->

ever felt u wanna stay home and ...

... hug your personal stinky pillow to sleep
... hug ur parents before you sleep
... watch all the exciting sg, hongkong, japan, korean shows
... eat home cooked food
... nuah at the sofa
... listen to ur favourite music that's exclusive to ur computer
... listen to mum's naggings
... fight with dad over the remote control
... just stay at home

all this before you fly off to a foreign country?
many days before actual departure date?
one day before actual departure date?
thats wat im feeling right now.
homesick.
terribly homesick.
absolutely homesick.
treasuring every moment at home now.

16 days away from home.
away from dependence.
towards forced independence.
away from comfort zone.
towards fighting ring.

sponsored trip.
lucky me.
appreciative.
grateful.

yet...

small quarrel.
big things unfolded.
confused me.
unsettled me.

shd i open up.
or shd i shut down.

life is an irony.
because i made it so.
is it?
or is it not?